random thoughts

Hmmm...decided to be more mature n leave my previous entry for prosterity. and also to remind myself how juvenile i can be...haha...yupz...i'm in a better state now. stayed in sch for 11 hours in the lab. but i guess it was pretty okay towards the end. coz it was juz me, the IR machine and chloroform for rinsing(not to rinse me, but to rinse the apparatus). haha...it's pretty calming, seriously. n it turned out that my expts were okay...though not good enough to obtain significant results. i guess i was too impatient and eager to get the "expected results". tat's something i really muz change. i realise that it is really tough to be a phD student. staying in the lab from 9am to 9pm isn't something everyone can tahan. haha...i tink maybe i'll juz be a teacher. much more carefree n dun need to breathe in wierd vapours n wear gloves everyday.
i tink the more i dislike UROPs, the worse i fare in it. haha...it's a vicious cycle. gonna try to pyscho myself to like it. juz like physics in sec sch n jc. i disliked physics. a lot. but after pyschoing myself, it becomes much better. haha...maybe i can become a psychologist 1 day. yupz...so i shall keep reminding myself to like UROPS n hopefully i'll be happier n not feel as bad as juz now:) heh...but seriously, it feels quite shuang3 to type out all my frustrations:P though i muz remember not to do it too often. yupz...dun take the post below too seriously. juz treat it as though i'm whining...haha...okiez...enough for today. gonna sleep now. gotta go lab at 11am tomolo. learning gel electrophoresis:)

Sorry for removing my post once again. I juz thot it was a pretty lame post so juz deleted it away. gonna use lots of oxymorons henceforth: yupz...this week is juz great. really great. spending 8hrs in the lab everyday are juz the best days in my life. n wat's the best part? all my expts din work out so far. wow. wonderful. n i prob have to redo the whole thing next week. n the phD student was quite nice to me, but i seriously dun understand what i'm doing n she doesn't really explain it to me. she shows me how to do it once n expect me to be able to imitate her after tat. wow...sorry lohz...i'm juz so fast at getting stuff. n she's always so free, so free tat i can't find her whenever i have any doubts.haiz...dunno lahz...headache man. sometimes, i juz wanna not go 2 the lab n rot at home. escapism. watever. blehz...but it is not possible.

okiez...enough of my wonderful life. sj seems to be pretty busy too. i wonder if the outing will be on after all...sorry ah...in a pessimistic mood...i really wanna go overseas or something. had such a great time at sch that i wanna go overseas n s/u all my modules n spend the whole day doing stuff that i like, like going to see the effiel tower, eating bon-bons, sipping red wine and eating cheese at some small shop in paris. yupz...that's my dream 4 next year. but that is if i can survive the extremely challenging module mapping n all the red tape.

i dun mind roller-blading. i'm fine with anything. anything that is not mundane is okay with me.